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G\u00f6kdere Yolu<\/h1>\n

Tokat sabah\u0131 daha tam uyanmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ta\u015f kald\u0131r\u0131ml\u0131 sokaklar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde ince bir serinlik dola\u015f\u0131yor, sokak lambalar\u0131 g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na kar\u015f\u0131 solgun solgun yan\u0131yordu. Evlerin kap\u0131lar\u0131 kapal\u0131yd\u0131. Baz\u0131 pencerelerin arkas\u0131ndan yeni ba\u015flayan g\u00fcn\u00fcn k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck sesleri geliyordu.<\/p>\n

Uzakta bir f\u0131r\u0131n\u0131n bacas\u0131ndan duman y\u00fckseliyor, ekmek kokusu dar sokaklar\u0131n aras\u0131na yava\u015f\u00e7a yay\u0131l\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

\u00c2dem o sabah erkenden kalkm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u0130\u00e7inde saklayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir heyecan vard\u0131. Dedesi Nurettin Bey’le birlikte G\u00f6kdere K\u00f6y\u00fc’ne gideceklerdi. \u00c7aml\u0131bel Da\u011f\u0131’n\u0131n eteklerinde, k\u0131vr\u0131la k\u0131vr\u0131la uzanan yollar\u0131n sonunda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir mand\u0131ra vard\u0131. Nurettin Bey y\u0131llard\u0131r yo\u011furdu ve peyniri oradan al\u0131rd\u0131. Ona g\u00f6re o peynir ba\u015fka yerde bulunmazd\u0131; tuzu, kokusu, eme\u011fi ayr\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Nurhan Han\u0131m, kap\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda o\u011flunun boynuna ince bir atk\u0131 ba\u011flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

“Sabahlar\u0131 serin olur,” dedi. “\u00dc\u015f\u00fctme sak\u0131n.”<\/p>\n

\u00c2dem ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131. Akl\u0131 atk\u0131da ya da serinlikte de\u011fildi. Dedesinin eski deri \u00e7antas\u0131na, kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde dimdik duran g\u00f6vdesine, y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ciddi ama yumu\u015fak ifadeye bak\u0131yordu. Nurettin Bey’in her hareketinde \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fc bir d\u00fczen vard\u0131. \u00c7antas\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131, kap\u0131y\u0131 kapat\u0131\u015f\u0131, soka\u011fa ad\u0131m at\u0131\u015f\u0131 bile y\u0131llar \u00f6nce \u00f6\u011frenilmi\u015f ve hi\u00e7 bozulmam\u0131\u015f bir disiplinin par\u00e7as\u0131 gibiydi.<\/p>\n

Behzat Bulvar\u0131’na do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcler. \u015eehir yava\u015f yava\u015f uyan\u0131yordu. F\u0131r\u0131nlardan \u00e7\u0131kan ilk ekmekler tezg\u00e2hlara dizilmi\u015fti. Birka\u00e7 esnaf kepenklerini yar\u0131ya kadar kald\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, sabah\u0131n sessizli\u011fini fazla incitmeden g\u00fcne haz\u0131rlan\u0131yordu. \u00c2dem dedesinin birka\u00e7 ad\u0131m gerisinden y\u00fcr\u00fcyordu. Nurettin Bey’in omuzlar\u0131 geni\u015fti; ya\u015f\u0131 ilerlemi\u015fti ama y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnde h\u00e2l\u00e2 dimdik bir kuvvet vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

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\"Tokat<\/p>\n

Sabah\u0131n serinli\u011finde ba\u015flayan yolculuk.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

Tokat Otogar\u0131<\/h2>\n

Eski Tokat Otogar\u0131’na vard\u0131klar\u0131nda ortam bamba\u015fka bir h\u00e2l ald\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u015eehir hen\u00fcz sakin g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu, ama otogar \u00e7oktan uyanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck b\u00fcfelerin \u00f6n\u00fcnde \u00e7ay bardaklar\u0131 buhar \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yor, k\u00f6yden gelen kad\u0131nlar ba\u015flar\u0131nda yazmalar\u0131, kucaklar\u0131nda sepetleriyle bekliyordu. Erkekler sigaralar\u0131n\u0131 t\u00fctt\u00fcr\u00fcyor, ellerini yelek ceplerine sokmu\u015f, sabah serinli\u011fine sessizce dayan\u0131yordu. Muavinlerin sesi motor u\u011fultular\u0131na kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu:<\/p>\n

“Erbaa\u2026 Niksar\u2026 Re\u015fadiye\u2026”<\/p>\n

Mazot kokusu havaya sinmi\u015fti. Ta\u015f zemindeki ayak sesleri, sepetlerin h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131, uzak bir \u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fck ve \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan motorlar\u0131n bo\u011fuk titre\u015fimi birbirine kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. \u00c2dem kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde hem k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck hem de dikkatli hissediyordu kendini. Herkes bir yere gidiyor, herkes bir \u015fey ta\u015f\u0131yor, herkesin i\u00e7inde kendine ait bir hik\u00e2ye duruyordu.<\/p>\n

Nurettin Bey uzaktaki eski model minib\u00fcse el kald\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

“G\u00f6kdere’ye gidece\u011fiz,” dedi.<\/p>\n

\u015eof\u00f6r onu tan\u0131m\u0131\u015f gibi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi, kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7eri girdiklerinde eski d\u00f6\u015femelerin kokusu y\u00fczlerine vurdu. Koltuklar kal\u0131nd\u0131 ama \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Baz\u0131 minderlerin kenarlar\u0131 y\u0131rt\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, i\u00e7indeki k\u00f6p\u00fck g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr olmu\u015ftu. Pencere kenar\u0131nda \u015falvarl\u0131, y\u00fcn \u00e7orapl\u0131 ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131nlar oturuyordu. Birinin kuca\u011f\u0131nda beyaz bir \u00e7ar\u015fafa sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f peynirler vard\u0131. Bir adam gazeteyi iki eliyle a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f, haberlerin \u00fcst\u00fcnde a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r ilerliyordu. Yan\u0131ndaki adam tespihini sessizce \u00e7ekiyor, tanelerin birbirine de\u011fen sesi motor \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmadan bile duyuluyordu.<\/p>\n

Bir k\u00f6\u015fede gen\u00e7 bir adam eski bir radyoyu kurcalad\u0131. C\u0131z\u0131rt\u0131l\u0131 bir halk m\u00fczi\u011fi y\u00fckseldi; \u00f6nce bo\u011fuk, sonra biraz daha belirgin. Ses, da\u011f yoluna \u00e7\u0131kmadan \u00f6nce minib\u00fcs\u00fcn i\u00e7ine eski bir memleket duygusu b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

Minib\u00fcs hareket edince g\u00f6vdesi bir kez silkindi. \u00c2dem bunu hemen fark etti. Babas\u0131n\u0131n arabas\u0131nda olmayan bir sars\u0131nt\u0131yd\u0131 bu. Ara\u00e7 \u00f6nce geriye y\u0131\u011f\u0131ld\u0131, sonra yola oturdu. Koltuklar\u0131n alt\u0131ndan gelen titre\u015fim bacaklar\u0131na, oradan s\u0131rt\u0131na kadar ula\u015ft\u0131. \u015eehir yava\u015f yava\u015f arkada kald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yol, ba\u015f\u0131nda sis ta\u015f\u0131yan Niksar taraf\u0131na do\u011fru uzand\u0131. Saat sekizi biraz ge\u00e7mi\u015fti. G\u00fcne\u015f \u015fehirde yeni \u0131s\u0131n\u0131yordu; da\u011fa vurunca \u0131\u015f\u0131k ba\u015fka t\u00fcrl\u00fc da\u011f\u0131l\u0131yordu. Yol k\u0131vr\u0131ld\u0131k\u00e7a ta\u015flar parl\u0131yor, \u00e7ukurlar koyula\u015f\u0131yor, ye\u015filin tonu her virajda de\u011fi\u015fiyordu. K\u00f6y yolunun sertli\u011fi tekerleklerden ge\u00e7ip koltu\u011fa, oradan \u00c2dem’in g\u00f6vdesine kadar ula\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

Minib\u00fcs kasaban\u0131n i\u00e7inden ge\u00e7erken, yol kenar\u0131ndaki f\u0131r\u0131ndan y\u00fckselen ekmek kokusu \u00c2dem’in midesini guruldatt\u0131. Sonra yol virajland\u0131. K\u0131r \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri kenarlarda renk renk a\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131. G\u00f6k berrakt\u0131. Mavi, o sabah ba\u015fka bir anlam kazanm\u0131\u015f gibiydi. Tepeler aras\u0131ndan s\u00fcz\u00fclen g\u00fcne\u015f, karla \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fc da\u011f zirvelerine vurduk\u00e7a \u00c2dem b\u00fcy\u00fclenmi\u015f gibi d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya bak\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

Nurettin Bey yol boyunca g\u00f6zlerini manzaradan ay\u0131rmad\u0131. Bir s\u00fcre sonra ba\u015f\u0131yla d\u0131\u015far\u0131y\u0131 i\u015faret etti.<\/p>\n

“Bak,” dedi.<\/p>\n

\u00c2dem cama biraz daha yakla\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

“Ne var?”<\/p>\n

Nurettin Bey eliyle a\u015fa\u011f\u0131daki k\u0131vr\u0131ml\u0131 yolu g\u00f6sterdi.<\/p>\n

“Az \u00f6nce oradan ge\u00e7tik ya. \u015eimdi daha iyi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor.”<\/p>\n

\u00c2dem d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bakt\u0131. Az \u00f6nce i\u00e7inden ge\u00e7tikleri k\u0131vr\u0131mlar \u015fimdi da\u011f\u0131n yamac\u0131nda ince bir \u00e7izgi gibi uzan\u0131yordu. Minib\u00fcs y\u00fckseldik\u00e7e evler k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcyor, dere daha belirginle\u015fiyor, tarlalar\u0131n aras\u0131 se\u00e7iliyordu.<\/p>\n

“Her \u015fey k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcyor,” dedi \u00c2dem.<\/p>\n

Nurettin Bey g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi. “K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fclm\u00fcyor. Senin g\u00f6rebilece\u011fin \u015fekilde bir araya geliyor.”<\/p>\n

\u00c2dem bunu tam anlamad\u0131 ama merak\u0131 devam ediyordu. Di\u011fer yandan, o an dedesinin ne demek istedi\u011fini de\u011fil, d\u0131\u015far\u0131daki yolun nas\u0131l de\u011fi\u015fti\u011fini g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Biraz \u00f6nce i\u00e7inde sars\u0131ld\u0131klar\u0131 viraj, uzaktan bak\u0131nca ba\u015fka yollarla birle\u015fiyordu.<\/p>\n

Bir s\u00fcre sonra g\u00fcne\u015f da\u011f\u0131n yamac\u0131ndan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcp minib\u00fcs\u00fcn i\u00e7ine d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131n yazmas\u0131n\u0131n kenar\u0131 ayd\u0131nland\u0131. Sonra \u0131\u015f\u0131k kayd\u0131, gazete tutan adam\u0131n parmaklar\u0131na vurdu. Peynir \u00e7ar\u015faf\u0131 bir an beyazlad\u0131, ard\u0131ndan yeniden g\u00f6lgeye kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00c2dem camdan d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bakt\u0131. Minib\u00fcs\u00fcn cam\u0131nda kendi y\u00fcz\u00fc ince bir g\u00f6lge gibi beliriyor, d\u0131\u015far\u0131daki yol o g\u00f6lgenin i\u00e7inden ge\u00e7ip gidiyordu. Bir an hem i\u00e7erideymi\u015f hem de d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan kendine bak\u0131yormu\u015f gibi hissetti.<\/p>\n

Yol kenar\u0131nda y\u00fcr\u00fcyen birka\u00e7 ki\u015fi minib\u00fcse d\u00f6nd\u00fc. \u0130\u00e7lerinden biri g\u00f6zlerini k\u0131sarak cama bakt\u0131; sanki i\u00e7eride birini se\u00e7meye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Bir ba\u015fkas\u0131 da ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 hafif\u00e7e kald\u0131rd\u0131, y\u00fcz\u00fc tan\u0131d\u0131k birine rastlam\u0131\u015f gibi ayd\u0131nlan\u0131r oldu. \u00c2dem’in kalbi o an k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir sevin\u00e7le k\u0131p\u0131rdad\u0131. Belki onu g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015flerdi. Belki ger\u00e7ekten ona bak\u0131yorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Sonra ikisi de ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirdi. Biri omzundaki \u00e7uval\u0131 d\u00fczeltti, \u00f6teki yolun kenar\u0131ndaki ta\u015fa bas\u0131p y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye devam etti. Minib\u00fcs onlar\u0131n yan\u0131ndan ge\u00e7erken y\u00fczleri yeniden s\u0131radanla\u015ft\u0131. Az \u00f6nceki bak\u0131\u015f, sanki hi\u00e7 olmam\u0131\u015f gibi geride kald\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00c2dem’in i\u00e7inde garip bir bo\u015fluk belirdi. G\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f gibi olmu\u015ftu; ama g\u00f6r\u00fclmemi\u015fti. Bir anl\u0131\u011f\u0131na tan\u0131nacakm\u0131\u015f gibi durmu\u015f, sonra kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7indeki herhangi bir \u00e7ocuk olarak kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Koltu\u011fun titre\u015fimi bacaklar\u0131nda devam ediyor, cam\u0131n so\u011fuklu\u011fu y\u00fcz\u00fcne yak\u0131n duruyordu.<\/p>\n

Sonra dalg\u0131n bir sesle konu\u015ftu:<\/p>\n

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“Dede, \u015fu an buraday\u0131z ya\u2026 Ger\u00e7ekten bu minib\u00fcs\u00fcn i\u00e7indeyiz, de\u011fil mi?”<\/p>\n

Nurettin Bey torununa bakt\u0131, k\u0131sa bir sessizlikten sonra, “Ne demek istiyorsun sen \u015fimdi? Elbette buraday\u0131z. Oturuyorsun ya yan\u0131mda,” dedi.<\/p>\n

“Bilmiyorum,” dedi \u00c2dem. “Az \u00f6nce bize bakt\u0131lar. Sanki tan\u0131yacak gibiydiler, sonra ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirdiler. Bizi g\u00f6rd\u00fcler mi? Bizi biz olarak m\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcler, yoksa yanlar\u0131ndan ge\u00e7en dolu bir minib\u00fcs m\u00fcyd\u00fck?”<\/p>\n

“G\u00f6rd\u00fcler tabii,” dedi Nurettin Bey. “G\u00f6zleri var. Ama bizi tan\u0131mad\u0131klar\u0131 i\u00e7in selam vermemeleri normal.”<\/p>\n

\u00c2dem ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7att\u0131. “Yani onlar ger\u00e7ek bizi g\u00f6rm\u00fcyorlar m\u0131? Sadece bir kalabal\u0131k m\u0131y\u0131z onlar i\u00e7in? Oysa birka\u00e7 ki\u015fiyle g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze geldim, seni ve beni tan\u0131yor gibiydiler.”<\/p>\n

“Olur \u00f6yle,” dedi Nurettin Bey. “\u0130nsanlar bazen meraktan, bazen sezgiyle bakarlar.”<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

Dede sesini yumu\u015fatt\u0131. “Ne \u00f6\u011frenmek istiyorsun?”<\/p>\n

\u00c2dem cama d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Camda kendi y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rd\u00fc. D\u0131\u015far\u0131daki yol, y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcnden ak\u0131p gidiyordu.<\/p>\n

“Peki insan ne zaman ger\u00e7ekten g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcr?” diye sordu.<\/p>\n

Nurettin Bey elini torununun omzuna koydu.<\/p>\n

“Biri sana ad\u0131nla seslenirse. Ya da seni beklerse. Ya da sen anlatmadan y\u00fcz\u00fcnden anlarsa.”<\/p>\n

“Sen anl\u0131yor musun?”<\/p>\n

Dede hafif\u00e7e g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi. “Bazen.”<\/p>\n

“\u015eimdi anlad\u0131n m\u0131?”<\/p>\n

“Biraz.”<\/p>\n

“Ne anlad\u0131n?”<\/p>\n

Nurettin Bey, \u00c2dem’in atk\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fczeltti. “\u0130\u00e7ine bir \u015fey tak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f,” dedi.<\/p>\n

\u00c2dem g\u00f6zlerini ka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. Bu cevap ona garip geldi. Hem utanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 hem de dedesinin bunu anlamas\u0131na sevinmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

“Tak\u0131ld\u0131,” dedi k\u0131s\u0131k bir sesle.<\/p>\n

Dede ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131. “\u0130yi. Tak\u0131ls\u0131n. Sonra yine sorars\u0131n.”<\/p>\n

Minib\u00fcs bir \u00e7ukura girdi. \u0130kisi de hafif\u00e7e sars\u0131ld\u0131. Nurettin Bey’in eli \u00c2dem’i omzundan tuttu. \u00c2dem tekrar cama bakt\u0131. Camda kendi y\u00fcz\u00fc vard\u0131. Yan\u0131nda dedesinin y\u00fcz\u00fc de belli belirsiz g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Bir sepet yerinden oynad\u0131, ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n eliyle tuttu. Radyodaki t\u00fcrk\u00fc c\u0131z\u0131rt\u0131ya kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

Konu\u015fma orada kald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bir s\u00fcre sonra \u00c2dem’in akl\u0131na ba\u015fka bir soru geldi.<\/p>\n

“Dedeci\u011fim, biz neden k\u00f6ye gidiyoruz? Oradaki s\u00fct\u00e7\u00fc amcadan peynir alaca\u011f\u0131z diye koca bir yolculuk yap\u0131yoruz. Tokat’ta herhangi bir bakkaldan da alabilirdik.”<\/p>\n

Nurettin Bey g\u00fclerek \u00c2dem’in ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fad\u0131.<\/p>\n

“Alabilirdik. Ama ben hep bu amcadan al\u0131m yapar\u0131m.”<\/p>\n

“Neden? “<\/p>\n

“\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc onun nas\u0131l emek verdi\u011fini ve o eme\u011fi nas\u0131l lezzete ve kaliteye d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc biliyorum da ondan.”<\/p>\n

\u00c2dem elindeki bo\u015f torbaya bakt\u0131. “O zaman sadece almak yetmiyor.”<\/p>\n

Nurettin Bey ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131. “Yetmiyor. K\u0131ymetini de bileceksin. K\u0131ymet bilmezsen hayat senin de kar\u015f\u0131na k\u0131ymet bilmeyenleri \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131r.”<\/p>\n

Bu s\u00f6zler \u00c2dem’in i\u00e7ine s\u0131cak ve a\u011f\u0131r birer emanet olarak i\u015fledi. Peynir almak i\u00e7in yap\u0131lan yolculuk, yaln\u0131zca al\u0131\u015fveri\u015f olmaktan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131. O peynirin ard\u0131nda bir adam\u0131n sabah kalk\u0131\u015f\u0131, hayvanlar\u0131n\u0131 besleyi\u015fi, s\u00fct\u00fcn kaynamas\u0131, tuzun ayar\u0131, mand\u0131ran\u0131n kokusu, k\u00f6y\u00fcn topra\u011f\u0131 ve yolun zahmeti vard\u0131. Bir \u015feyi de\u011ferli k\u0131lan yaln\u0131z tad\u0131 de\u011fildi; i\u00e7inden ge\u00e7en emekti.<\/p>\n

Minib\u00fcs toprak yola sapt\u0131. \u00c7ukurlar artt\u0131. Da\u011f\u0131n serinli\u011fi h\u00e2l\u00e2 tenlerine vuruyordu; g\u00fcne\u015f y\u00fckseldik\u00e7e serinli\u011fin i\u00e7ine ince bir s\u0131cakl\u0131k kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131. K\u00f6ye yakla\u015f\u0131rken yol kenar\u0131ndaki evler seyrekle\u015fti. Birka\u00e7 kerpi\u00e7 duvar, birka\u00e7 bah\u00e7e, ah\u0131r kap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde duran kovalar g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. Tavuklar yolun kenar\u0131ndan ka\u00e7\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bir \u00e7ocuk, elindeki sopayla topra\u011f\u0131 e\u015feleyip minib\u00fcse bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6kdere<\/h2>\n

G\u00f6kdere K\u00f6y\u00fc’ne vard\u0131klar\u0131nda minib\u00fcs meydan\u0131n yak\u0131n\u0131nda durdu.<\/p>\n

Nurettin Bey \u00f6nce indi, sonra \u00c2dem’e elini uzatt\u0131. \u00c7ocuk aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 topra\u011fa bast\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u015fehirden ayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissetti. Toprak yumu\u015fak de\u011fildi; ama canl\u0131yd\u0131. Havada s\u00fct, saman, nemli toprak ve odun duman\u0131 kar\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131 bir koku vard\u0131. K\u00f6y acele etmeyen bir yer gibiydi. Herkes birbirini tan\u0131yor, her ses bir yerden gelip bir yere oturuyordu.<\/p>\n

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“Y\u00fcr\u00fcyelim biraz,” dedi Nurettin Bey. “Burada acele etmemize gerek yok.”<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

\u00c2dem dedesinin yan\u0131nda y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Meydanda birka\u00e7 erkek selam verdi. Bir kad\u0131n kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde bak\u0131r bir le\u011feni y\u0131k\u0131yordu. Uzakta bir inek b\u00f6\u011f\u00fcrd\u00fc. Mand\u0131raya do\u011fru ilerlerken Nurettin Bey herkesle k\u0131sa k\u0131sa konu\u015fuyor, kimseye fazla s\u00f6z vermiyor ama kimseyi de ge\u00e7i\u015ftirmiyordu. \u00c2dem bunu izledi. Dedesinin insanlarla kurdu\u011fu ili\u015fkide tuhaf bir denge vard\u0131: yukar\u0131dan bakan bir mesafe de yoktu, kendini da\u011f\u0131tan bir yak\u0131nl\u0131k da. Herkese hakk\u0131 kadar yer veren bir duru\u015ftu bu.<\/p>\n

Mand\u0131raya girdiklerinde i\u00e7erisi serindi. Ta\u015f duvarlar sabah\u0131n so\u011fu\u011funu saklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. B\u00fcy\u00fck kaplar\u0131n i\u00e7inde yo\u011furtlar duruyor, bir kenarda peynirler s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyordu. S\u00fct\u00fcn ek\u015fi ve temiz kokusu havaya yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Mand\u0131rac\u0131 adam Nurettin Bey’i g\u00f6r\u00fcnce g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.<\/p>\n

“Ho\u015f geldiniz Nurettin Bey.”<\/p>\n

“Ho\u015f bulduk,” dedi dede. “Bu da torunum \u00c2dem.”<\/p>\n

Adam \u00c2dem’e bakt\u0131. “Demek sen \u00c2dem’sin.”<\/p>\n

Bu c\u00fcmle \u00c2dem’in ho\u015funa gitti. O an minib\u00fcsteki \u00e7ocuk de\u011fildi yaln\u0131zca ; ad\u0131yla \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131lan, fark edilen, birinin bak\u0131\u015f\u0131nda yer bulan biriydi. Yolda sordu\u011fu soru yeniden i\u00e7ine d\u00f6nd\u00fc. G\u00f6r\u00fcnmek ba\u015fka, anla\u015f\u0131lmak ba\u015fka. Burada insanlar birbirine yaln\u0131z y\u00fcz olarak de\u011fil; emek, hik\u00e2ye ve ad olarak de\u011fiyordu.<\/p>\n

Peynirler tart\u0131ld\u0131. Yo\u011furtlar kaplara kondu. Nurettin Bey paras\u0131n\u0131 verdi\u011finde pazarl\u0131k etmedi. \u00c2dem \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cDede,\u201d dedi, mand\u0131ran\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131ndan avluya ad\u0131m atarken, peynirin tuzu h\u00e2l\u00e2 dama\u011f\u0131ndayken, \u201chi\u00e7 pazarl\u0131k yapmad\u0131n.\u201d Nurettin Bey elindeki torbay\u0131 biraz yukar\u0131 \u00e7ekti, parmaklar\u0131n\u0131n bo\u011fumlar\u0131na yap\u0131\u015fan nemli torba h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131yla yerini buldu. A\u011fz\u0131ndan s\u00fct kokusu, \u00fcst\u00fcne sigara duman\u0131 sinmi\u015f bir nefes \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. \u201cHer \u015feyin pazarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 olmaz, evlat.\u201d G\u00f6zleri avlunun k\u00f6\u015fesindeki kovaya ili\u015fti; az \u00f6nce yere damlayan s\u00fct, suya kar\u0131\u015f\u0131p ince bir \u00e7izgi olmu\u015f ak\u0131yordu. \u201cDedim ya, ben arkas\u0131ndaki eme\u011fi biliyorum.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00c2dem elindeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck pakete bakt\u0131. O paket art\u0131k yaln\u0131zca bir yiyecek de\u011fildi. \u0130\u00e7inde gidilen yol, sabah\u0131n serinli\u011fi, minib\u00fcs\u00fcn sars\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131, da\u011f\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131, mand\u0131rac\u0131n\u0131n eme\u011fi ve dedesinin s\u00f6z\u00fc vard\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

G\u00f6kdere meydan\u0131ndan ge\u00e7erken \u00c2dem’in g\u00f6z\u00fc \u00e7e\u015fmenin ba\u015f\u0131ndaki \u00e7ocu\u011fa tak\u0131ld\u0131. \u00c7ocuk, avucuyla su i\u00e7iyor, \u00f6b\u00fcr elinde yar\u0131s\u0131 yenmi\u015f bir portakal ve kabuklar\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yordu. O an \u00c2dem bunun \u00fczerinde durmad\u0131. \u00c7ocuktu; bakm\u0131\u015f, g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, sonra yoluna devam etmi\u015fti. Meydan\u0131n s\u0131radan ayr\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131ndan biriydi bu: \u00e7e\u015fmeden ta\u015fan su, kahvenin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki kasketli adam, ba\u015f\u0131yla selam veren kad\u0131n, nemli topra\u011f\u0131n ayakkab\u0131 alt\u0131nda b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yumu\u015fak ses ve o \u00e7ocu\u011fun elindeki kabuk.<\/p>\n

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\"G\u00f6kdere<\/p>\n

\u00c7e\u015fme ba\u015f\u0131ndaki \u00e7ocuk, o g\u00fcn s\u0131radan bir ayr\u0131nt\u0131 gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

Portakal Kabu\u011fu<\/h2>\n

Y\u0131llar sonra \u00c2dem, \u00f6l\u00fcm d\u00f6\u015fe\u011finde ayn\u0131 sahneye d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ayr\u0131nt\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc. Art\u0131k oraya \u00e7ocuk g\u00f6zleriyle de\u011fil, hayat\u0131n i\u00e7inden ge\u00e7mi\u015f bir bilin\u00e7le bak\u0131yordu. \u00c7e\u015fme yine ak\u0131yordu. Kad\u0131n yine ba\u015f\u0131yla selam veriyordu. Kahvenin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki adam sigaras\u0131n\u0131 iki parma\u011f\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda tutuyordu. \u00c7ocuk yine oradayd\u0131; elindeki portakal ve kabu\u011funun suyu bile kurumam\u0131\u015f gibiydi.<\/p>\n

O g\u00fcn G\u00f6kdere’ye gitmi\u015fti. Bir k\u00f6ye de\u011fil, kendi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesinin ilk kap\u0131s\u0131na varm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

Dar sokaklardan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p yukar\u0131dan bakmay\u0131, g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr olman\u0131n anla\u015f\u0131lmak anlam\u0131na gelmedi\u011fini, bir \u015feyin de\u011ferinin ona temas eden emekle kavranabilece\u011fini ilk kez orada sezmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

Sonradan Panlektik ad\u0131n\u0131 verece\u011fi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncenin ilk k\u0131p\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 belki de tam orada do\u011fmu\u015ftu: minib\u00fcs\u00fcn cam\u0131nda, da\u011fa vuran \u0131\u015f\u0131kta, dedesinin dizinin \u00fcst\u00fcnde duran elinde, G\u00f6kdere yolunun sars\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131nda.<\/p>\n

\u00c2dem o g\u00fcn \u00e7ocuktu. Ama baz\u0131 \u00e7ocukluk g\u00fcnleri, insan\u0131n i\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fcmeye devam eder.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6kdere de \u00f6yle kald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bir k\u00f6yden \u00e7ok, bir bak\u0131\u015f bi\u00e7imi olarak.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

G\u00f6kdere Yolu Tokat sabah\u0131 daha tam uyanmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ta\u015f kald\u0131r\u0131ml\u0131 sokaklar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde ince bir serinlik dola\u015f\u0131yor, sokak lambalar\u0131 g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na kar\u015f\u0131 solgun solgun yan\u0131yordu. Evlerin kap\u0131lar\u0131 kapal\u0131yd\u0131. Baz\u0131 pencerelerin arkas\u0131ndan yeni ba\u015flayan g\u00fcn\u00fcn k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck sesleri geliyordu. Uzakta bir f\u0131r\u0131n\u0131n bacas\u0131ndan duman y\u00fckseliyor, ekmek kokusu dar sokaklar\u0131n aras\u0131na yava\u015f\u00e7a yay\u0131l\u0131yordu. \u00c2dem o sabah erkenden kalkm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u0130\u00e7inde saklayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":161,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-160","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-varolusculuk"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cemalkara.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/160","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cemalkara.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cemalkara.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cemalkara.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cemalkara.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=160"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/cemalkara.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/160\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cemalkara.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/161"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cemalkara.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=160"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cemalkara.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=160"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cemalkara.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=160"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}